6. August 2007, 14:24
A Massive Picture Post
I am bad at keeping an interwebs blog these days. Very bad. So I just buckled down and am making a big Picture Post of Doom. I have owed my friends of the interwebs many pictures for a very long time so this is going to include new clothes and, gasp, Wedding Photos (no one thought those would ever come, hm?).
First, the wedding photos. I have dragged my feet on these because…well, I felt pretty on my wedding day, but I got the pictures and almost died. Someone parted my bangs the wrong way and hairsprayed them down. They looked terrible. Then there was the attention whoring of my sternum and the disappearance of my boobs. I knew I was too skinny. I was trying to gain weight to make sure I would look fabulous, but the wedding came and I had failed. I didn’t realize how miserably until I saw pictures. The dress is gorgeous, I was just too skeletal for it. Anyway, I have gained about 10 pounds and almost a cup size since then. On my one year anniversary, I will probably look stunning in the gown (assuming I gain another 5-10 pounds by then). I’ll have a bit of cleavage and my sternum will be hidden under flesh! That’s enough of that though. I am not trying to fish for compliments. Just expressing thoughts. You need to see pictures.
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The important thing is, of course, my gorgeous dress/attire. First, from the back. My veil fell off at the end of the ceremony as soon as I had exited into the hall. So the only pictures I have of it are from during the ceremony. It was long and awesome. Nothing for my face thank you very much.
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Here’s a picture from the front, from when I was tossing my tossing bouquet. Obviously, I wasn’t going to toss my real bouquet (not that it mattered because one of my sisters caught it).
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Here’s another from the back. I’m slouching. Wonderful. Also, you can see my real bouquet. It had a gold pocket watch with a train on it attached to the ribbon. It belongs to my grandfather, and it was my “something borrowed” (my mother insisted on that).
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Finally, the bride and the bridegroom.
~ awh ~
Ok. Obviously, I have tons more pictures, but what exactly does one want to see? My family? His family? Cake? Punch drinking from goblets? I just don’t know.
Now, onto random new clothing pictures. I knew it was time for this, because I keep buying more new things which can’t be included now. It is getting out of hand.
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the camera was way off kilter here…
purple dress: the limited, $30 marked down from $80 (and then two weeks later it was marked down to $20!)
sandals: MIA via Dillard’s, $30 (def. casual sandals to make the dress a little more casual for errand running/classes/etc. I’d wear a shoe more appropriate for the dress if I went somewhere nice)
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dress: f21
headband: f21
shoes: hush puppies via victorian trading company outlet, gift
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face of death!
dress: f21, $22.
belt: UO, marked down to $15 (to make the dress fit better even though the belt is also way too big for my waist. I need to punch about 3 more holes in it.)
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tunic/shirt length dress: f21. I hate the awkward length of everything lately. Anywhere I go, especially f21, everything is too long to be a flattering shirt, and way too short to be a dress, this shirt/dress included. But I loved the bright pattern so much so I said screw it and bought it anyway. I need a short, black petticoat to go under it to make it look more like a cute dress.
mini skirt: mervyn’s from when I was 13
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dress: f21 (its eyelet lace)
jewelry: f21
gladiator sandals: Mudd via Off Broadway, $20?
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tunic top: wetseal, marked down to $4.
cream layered miniskirt: f21,$7. I had been looking for something to go with that top for almost 2 years! Finally, I found something fabulous! (excuse the bumpiness, I usually have that fixed/hidden. the skirt has a big sash bow right there)
necklace: ribbon leftover from my wedding, cameo from an estate sale
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cream shirt: f21
gold skirt: f21, it used to be pleated with teeny pleats, but I washed it and that unfolded them all. I am not ironing 30 million tiny pleats back into place.
belt: UO
cream silk flats: aldo
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tanktop: f21, $3
sweater: f21, marked down to $10
highwaisted skirt: f21
the little pin which you can barely see, is black with dark grey lettering which says “BRMC”. I got it at a Black Rebel Motorcycle Club concert recently (the concert was freakin awesome btw).
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overexposed to the extreme, and this is my very favorite shirt!!
cream lace shirt: wet seal (3 years ago?)
baby blue tank top: wet seal
gray skirt: The Limited, marked down to $15. It’s supposed to be a kneelength skirt which sits at the hips with a sash tied in the front, but I like it way better yanked up over my waist with the sash tied in a big bow in the back. It actually flatters my waist that way!
shoes: payless
cameo: found in my mother-in-law’s stash of old jewelry
and now, a little bundle of jewelry. everthing is from an estate sale except for:
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gold and silver heart hairclips: delias, clearance
blue rose pin: f21, used to be a red rose charm. my husband spraypainted it navy and hotglued a pinback on it (it was for his easter outfit. I have since appropriated it).
gankutsuou pin: hot topic! I love to stop in just to go through their pin bins once in a while because something spectacularly awesome like this will pop up.
and some more shoes
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brown specator-y heels: shoe carnival, $12. I love these but haven’t been wearing them much lately because I can never think what to pair them with in the summer.
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pink heels: payless. This is a really stupid photo, but they look cuter on my feet than off, and standing regularly for a photo made them look odd. But they don’t look odd… just maybe on carpet in a photo.
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green boots: shoe carnival, $10. I overexposed the rest of the picture in photoshop to get better coloring/detail on the boots. I have only worn these twice, both times in the rain. I think they are really super cool looking, but maybe not on me/my feet. I never know what to wear them with.
So I guess that’s the end for now. I have started my job. Yes, I am a working girl. That’s fun and tiring, but really, I am done with the computer for now. Maybe I will explain another day. Right now, I need to go read. Mmm Demons by Dostoevsky. Mmmm.
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27. June 2007, 11:41
Back From The Grave
I’m sorry that I disappeared for so long. I never meant for this to happen. I am back, and would like to begin writing semi-regularly again. I haven’t written anything for myself since the last entry I wrote in this diary. Nothing anywhere, and I don’t like that. I want to get back to producing things, so this marks my return to writing. I suppose an update is in order first.
The last several months of my life have been busy in the best way possible. I have been plugging away at school (I am taking a French class at night over the summer), going out every weekend, reading, shopping, going to concerts, and more. I have been enjoying my life immensely for the first time in ages.
Married life is wonderful. I am getting along with my husband swimmingly. We are still the best of friends and quite in love. We argue seldom (and usually the arguments are initiated by me over small, stupid things during hormonal surges and regretted quickly afterwards) and he has been more than I ever expected. He is a wonderful husband, and I would like to think that I am a good wife. Responsibility and such is shared between us, but I have taken most of the cooking load and am loving it. I have freedom over what I fix for meals and have been experimenting and hunting down all sorts of delcious recipes. Tonight, honey-dijon chicken (it has to marinate for at least eight hours and I barely got it ready in time this morning), roasted red potatoes with garlic, and yummy spinach. I have things to make cute yogurt parfaits in wine glasses for dessert (I don’t have any fancy dessert cups yet). I love not being tied down to what my picky picky sisters will eat. My six month wedding anniversary is Saturday though so I get to go eat out somewhere semi-fancy! Oh boy!
I have also acquired oodles of new, beautiful, wonderful things. I have been terrible at taking pictures though, shame on me. I have lovely new clothes and shoes, and a stack of new books (I finally got time to finish my last stack!). I have also been watching loads of movies. I have a Netflix account now and have finally found the sorts of movies I adore. I have also discovered the hilarity which is The Office. My husband and I also indulged in a Nintendo Wii! Oh boy! I am always looking for friends, and willing to exchange Wii addresses with anyone else. It is really a blast. I haven’t had this much fun with a video game system since I discovered Final Fantasy X for the ps2. I am not much of a gamer, but I really adore the Wii.
I mentioned this briefly earlier, but I have been to several concerts lately. I am being compensated for all the years I went without concerts! In the past few months I attended a My Brightest Diamond/Decemberists concert, a Black Rebel Motorcycle Club concert, a Bloc Party concert, and an Ours concert. I enjoyed My Brightest Diamond a lot. The Decemberists were fun. BRMC was completely freakin’ awesome and so was Bloc Party for that matter. Ours was… interesting. They perform well but they played a two freakin’ hour set with several ten minute instrumental songs. Which was, honestly, a little much.
And finally, to end this update, the biggest change I’ve been through. Not the most important, but the biggest. I chopped off my hair the day before Easter! I lost a whole foot! Of course, I have pictures. That’s what held this entry up (that and photobucket servers)! I have had a hard time getting myself motivated to get a picture of my new hair.
old hair
First, an old picture. This is my hair before I got it cut. This was the best old picture I could find to help everyone remember the length of my hair, but this was from November or December, so imagine at least two/three more inches of hair.
first picture of current hair
second picture of current hair
This is my hair now, near three months after the haircut. My hair is about an inch or two longer than it was when it was cut. Anyway, I do not miss my long hair at all. I am loving it shorter and, as it is getting to be high time for another hair cut, I think I want to get it cut even shorter. Maybe up to brushing my shoulders? Maybe up to my chin? I have to decide what I think will still suit me…
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27. January 2007, 22:26
The Fruits of a Crammed Little Shop
Today, I visited an adorable little warehouse shop. The rooms of the shop were bursting with victorian style knick knacks on super sale. The deals were amazing and the objects were beautiful. My in-laws had invited me over and were gushing to gift me with anything I wanted from the store (within reason, nothing too expensive) because they were positive that most of the stuff in the store was so me. And they were right. I found loads of gorgeous objects. Porcelain teapots, silver comb and brush sets, ornate damask style stationery, flowered handkerchiefs, buttery handbags, lacy jackets, stately mantlepiece clocks and so many more beautiful victorian-inspired pieces than I could ever list. I spent two hours soaking in the atmosphere and the lovely objects. The store was too amazing, and there were too many wonderful things, but I finally narrowed things down.
Pictures:
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This is a cute sort of silly (because of the fur) bag I got. I think it will add a really neat dimension to every day clothing. It’s unexpected! The little matching bag was a free gift from the cashier. She asked me if there were matching accessories for the bag, and I said yes (the small bag pictured and a round fur covered CD holder) and she ushered me back and made me pick one out. She told me I had to have one and that she’d give it to me for free because I was “just too cute.”
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A beautiful Alice In Wonderland dream journal, a slighty defective pair of opera glasses (the handle is on upside down, my husband will fix that!), and a pair of lovely elbow length cream satin gloves with flower applique. The gloves will definitely be thrown into everyday wear. I think long gloves can add an elegant, classic touch to casual clothing.
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Shoes and handkerchief. Oh the shoes, the shoes! So fabulous! They are Hush Puppies but they are not ugly, grandma shoes! They are pretty, stylish, and kicky! And so comfortable! The handkerchief was just too pretty to pass up. There were several far too pretty to not get but I had to restrain myself. I think I am going to tie it around my neck. Sort of. I don’t think it will actually tie around my neck, so I will safety pin it and hide the safety pin.
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26. January 2007, 16:04
Basking
Friday is heavenly! On Friday afternoon and evening, I can let all my responsibilities slide away. I can relax. I love having things to do, but it is tiring. I love breaks when I am busy. I appreciate moments of doing nothing more when I know that I have many things to take care of when my break is over.
I love when it’s time to slow down, and stroll through the melting snow and sniff the crisp winter air or laze on my couch staring out the window at the blue blue sky.
Life is still so nice!
Today, as I was bumbling about my seat in my French classroom, a friendly, young girl (older than me, but still young) strolled up to me and told me that she just had to tell me how cute I always look! Awh! I am not used to being complimented on my clothing from people I see in person. Then, a little later the girl who sits next to me came in and complimented me on my dress. If I was capable of blushing, I would have been rather pink. It was reassuring to have others appreciate my clothing. I am obsessed lately.
So I felt silly, and I have taken pictures of this dress before, but I wanted pictures again today because I am wearing it differently. My picture taking skills are subpar as usual, but let’s overlook that. This is just a journal entry. Just for memories. P.S. No Photoshopping done on any of these! Not even cropping.
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18. December 2006, 12:09
The Wedding Invitations
My boyfriend posted pictures of the invitations I made in his journal, which reminded me that I needed (and meant to) post pictures of them too!
The pictures really do not do them full justice. They turned out better than I thought they would. They aren’t everything I wanted them to be, but I am okay with that.
I designed them and put them together myself. No invitation kits were used. I made about 100-110 and have 30 left (I think). The front of the envelopes were printed with the return address in italicized Cochinchine and the sending address in Handscript SF, the same font used for the invitations and rsvp cards.
Oh, and the backdrop of all of these pictures is a scrap of the fabric from my wedding dress.
The Envelope
The stamp on the front of the envelope, for elegance…
The Contents
The invitation and the response card together
The Invitation
The Response Card
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24. November 2006, 20:56
Forever Doing
Perhaps, back to normalcy? No, I do not think that I have many days left of my previous mode of normalcy. The day-to-day routine which I am used to is going to be swallowed up by holiday preparation and wedding preparation. But how I do love change! I am not complaining about it! Normalcy is relative, meaningless, and fleeting.
Yesterday was, of course, eaten by Thanksgiving. There was not much about it to break routine except for the vague feelings of nostalgia and large meal. No relatives were over, it was just my family in the house we live in every other day. The food was excellent, the day was warm, and there were plenty of dishes to do. Thus, the recurring theme in my life of dishes and the persistence of the desert (wretched desert).
Now I have to shop, shop, shop, and craft, craft, craft like mad in the days between now and December 30th.
Nothing fluffy or touching. Just me, busy-ness, and longing.
I am reading though, sometimes, when I can snatch a moment. And with all the outings which must occur, I am experimenting with clothing so I can, perhaps, look fabulous throughout the approaching winter. With a new, borrowed camera; I can, and do document this. (I am no photographer, I do not claim to be a photographer, and I never will. I am also only just getting the hang of using a different camera.)
I’m leaning on the stack of books I plan to read before December 30th. I do not plan on finishing the big book of Montaigne on top, but I do plan on finishing everything else.
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26. October 2006, 20:59
Impatiently Waiting
This week I am going to chronicle my fashion choices! How fun! And, for the first time, to chronicle one of my boyfriend’s trips out here.
Today I am quaint. To go outside, I added a pair of cream tights but it was too warm in the house to wear them.
Tonight my Billy comes! Oh what a long, tedious day of waiting and poking around at getting things done. I cleaned a little and read a little and made a couple things but the day kept dragging. By now I am oh so anxious and excited to finally have him here again that my stomach is twisting into knots and flopping around impatiently. Yet I still have over an hour ‘til he’ll be here! At least I leave in half an hour…maybe later… that breaks up the waiting but what a restless drive I shall have!
How many exclamation points can I use?! For now I go back to reading and staring at the clock, watching the numbers move forward oh so slowly…
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15. May 2006, 22:08
This is Just A Day, and I Am Just A Girl
I longed for vacation, and now here it is, and I am already sick of it. When I was at school, there was a motivation to get up out of bed every morning. I was going somewhere, and I was going to walk around. Now, there’s nothing. I’m dreadfully restless. I need to be up on my feet and moving, but there isn’t anything for me to do or anywhere for me to go. It is far too hot to do anything outside and even if it weren’t, it isn’t any fun going outside by yourself. I used to have a backyard with grass and a trampoline to entertain myself with when I didn’t have class, but now I only have a yard of rocks.
I get up and wander, looking for something, but I find nothing. I wander back to my chair and resume staring at my computer screen or the wall. Pining and sighing over nothing.
I’m not depressed or suicidal or such… I just feel… Oh inadequate language! How can anyone express themselves through writing without failing tremendously or misrepresenting themselves terribly?! I am doing the latter terrifically!
This isn’t right at all. I am failing miserably at recreating words which I lost with a wayward mouse click. I sound like I’m talking about one thing when I’m talking about another. Such is life.
This is just a day. Not a happy day, but far from a sad one. It is just a day. There is no word which describes a day that just IS or a feeling that just IS. Fine is the closest one can get and the connotations with that word are not acceptable.
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6. March 2006, 18:17
Je ne travaille pas sur mon examen. Je suis paresseuse.
This morning I had a major mood swing. I almost wrote an entry complaining about myself and the world at large, but obviously, I didn’t. I can’t quite decide whether I’m glad that I didn’t write, or if I’m sad that I didn’t write. In one case, I would have encapsulated negative emotions, and in the other case, well I would have done the same. In the second case it’s simply more acceptable because it would have been for posterity and lesson learning.
In any case, nothing is really left of that negative mood except for the gloomy event it forebodes and the outfit it drove me to wear today. It wasn’t really that bad, unfortunately. I think I’ve decided that I need to keep a “dress-up” box of bizarre clothing which I can pin and cinch into mockeries of the current haute courture lines so I can do something crazy, terrible, and way out there when I’m feeling bored with the normalcy of my regular wardrobe. I could go for a week looking like something the cat dragged in/a ragamuffin/Chloe Sevigny, then I’ll get bored of looking like a hideous tool, then I’ll relapse to my normal wardrobe and feel happy again. I think it would work.
Anyway, so I journyed into being a little on the abnormal side today. It was kind of rather lame and hot topic punk-ish but it was something a little different to wear this morning. And it meant I had to think a little less. I collaged it. For you, and for posterity. What would the world be if hot topic punks didn’t put out poorly photoshopped pictures every once in a while? Probably a slightly better place artistically but no matter. I’ll contribute to the death of photography anyway.
I’m going to go avoid my english exam more now.
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19. October 2005, 02:20
You're So Vain...
I remember a time when I use to take pictures of myself every other day. In the last five or six months I don’t think I’ve taken even half the amount of pictures of myself that I use to. I’ve completely lost interest in being a cam whore (which is a very good thing). But once every month or two, I relapse (a very bad thing)...I sneak the camera away under my arm so no one sees me, I close my door most of the way, and I snap a handful of pictures of myself, always just to show something off. Then I sneak the camera back to its place and pretend like nothing happened while I secretly peruse the fruits of my work.
Often times, I’m only disappointed with my silly amateur ventures into photography. But sometimes, I will light upon the rare good photo where my task succeeded in capturing something, and capturing it very prettily. And I’ve had a couple of those kinds of pictures lately… And I really like what I’ve done colorwise with such a crappy camera, and light wise with only daylight. No freakin desk lamps even! I’m fairly proud of some of the pictures even though I don’t look my best in them.
So I’m gonna be a show off. ‘Cause what’s the use of taking nifty pictures, if nobody else ever sees them? Art is meant to be admired, right? I’m not the best photography artist ever and I don’t claim to be, but I think for a little girl toying around with a sorry digital camera, I do a pretty good job of it sometimes…
Oceany blank stared capture plus my ring
Bright Eyes, the jail bird
Bright Eyes, the ghost (?), jail bird
Maybe, the infinitely tired works better… zzzzzz